♥ Friday, December 29, 2006 ♥
11:20:00 AM
but then, i might not have seen the either side of her yet. so let's just keep things to myself. as wad xb had said, they have to have mutual trust in each other since they have work for very long. but however, it seemed so one sided. it's always like lb taking the blame during all the sm. but another one claimed tt she was scolded by big boss. however, it always seemed to me it wasnt.
oh sighs.
lai came over shop :DDDD saw me n diana(:
i miss lai!!
i miss everyone in the school!
i wan to watch night of the museum and charlotte's web!!
11:07:00 AM
what are them thinking all about? jus because my education level is just a little higher, does it means that i've to be "the higher up there" kind of person. it's not i've got a problem. it's u ppl. none of u seems to put urself in our shoes to feel and understand how things are. imagine urself as me and me as u. i seriously dun think i'd say things like "u are smarter wad, win liao lo" things like that just because i'm in a better education stream. come on la, do i go around and think that all ppl from the special stream are looking down on ppl in express, normal academic and normal techincal stream? no right. so damn it rubbish.
but ultimately, if one works hard, things is just the same. we could b getting the same job, same pay and learn new things together. how come ppl just dun understand this fact. do condeming ppl makes things any better?
yet, none sees the
none understand how it feels to b like me.
wad i need is not a friend;
i need someone who'd gve me life.
make me stronger and have more resistance towards things,
reduce my sadness n make me the girl once again.
i badly need a life.
i jus dun belong here
i dun have a common topic w them.
i dun smoke.
neither do i go ard scolding bad words in every few minutes.
tt's y i'm totally different.
♥ Thursday, December 28, 2006 ♥
11:07:00 PM
it's pay day today(:
♥ Monday, December 25, 2006 ♥
11:59:00 PM
it was a special christmas this year
♥ Friday, December 22, 2006 ♥
8:24:00 AM
i'm like so so so busy recently! go work, go home sleep. same routine everyday. sians. let me think wad i can write.
hmm. i meet ah lai on the 14th. went to coffee bean. it was REALLY nice to have someone who came to meet u after so long u know! it's been a long long time since i've last seen mr lai. the last time was like during the O's. so i really really miss him!
back to the topic on IMM. i really love working there wor. ppl are nice to me, happen to see chu guan there! omg. cant believe it. it's like in jurong wor. but oh wells, i'm glad to see in his usual state(:
there's this shuai ge frm s&k. serious. working in TPY. so i shld find him sometime.. hahaha. he's seriously shuai can. and he's a taiwanese, just like justin and bernard. then the in charge of tt day taught me cashiering. quite easy la. cuz dun have nets or visa or mc. jus cash. then this shuai ge help me to pack!! so good rite? although the main thing is he doesnt wan to sell clothes, but then, he really help me pack! and he's a great help cuz i doesnt even know how much are my shop items so when there's a price change.. he can tell me.. haha(:
i really miss my gay!! i wan to go find him when i happen to go to tt shopping mall.. he's like so nice to me!! ): i wanna cry when i compare him and my sic. haiz. sad rite. i taking over diana shift wed. so sians.
been taking cab like as though cabs are free for me like tt. jus like on tue, 22nd, i went to meet chinhui for lunch. then is like we talk so much rubbish till we wasted too much time. then decided to take cab to bedok cuz it was like rainin so badly. then we went to bedok hawker center to eat la. it's quite nice.. then after tt, we realised i'm gg to b late!! cuz it was 1.3o already and i'm still in bedok! i've to reach my workplace at 1.45 u know! so i took a cab there. and after my work, it's like still raining so i took a cab w lady boss and da ge! and i look jus like a kid cuz i'm like so young there la. (:
ytd was ultra fun. work's great. everything's nice. hit the target after diana bought an umbrella (or rather, i psyco her to buy) then diana was waiting for lady boss, verlin n me to close shop. then yi ping came over to take bus w us mah. so the five of us cramp in a corner of the bus tgt w chips and started munching(: it's like so fun.. the postive side of work ya.
♥ Tuesday, December 12, 2006 ♥
9:39:00 AM
- mdm phua
- mrs anne chan
- christabel n her friends
- sujun
- angelina
- my cussins
i'm gg IMM to re-leave ppl lor. there need ppl.. how bad can this get?! it's like in jurong east and i'm living in tampines. so tt's like travelling across singapore. sians-.- and i've to do it for 2 days. wed and sat.. the worse part is chinhui is doing it on sun!! or else we can go tgt mah):
the story of 2 sotongs
ytd actually i work till 7. but i managed to leave at 6.. heh(: then i waited for xiao bai (let's not use real names) till 6.5o like tt. then we went out to eat. hee. then at the bus stop w her, there was this 196 bus. i asked her.. can take to mrt? she say can. so okays, the 2 of us went to take the bus la. then we talk lots of things inside. then the journey was rather long. (which shldnt b). i looked out of the window then it was like v dark.
after like 3o min later, i feel it's rather wierd, cuz not only the place was v dark (which shldnt b) and there were lots of construction sites la. then i asked xiao bai "196 really can go paya lebar meh? i thought is go clementi?" then she was like ultra shock la. she replied "this is 196 meh? i thought it's 76 or 136?" it turned out that she jus see the bus w last digit 6 and she boarded the bus.
then we took a cab to the nearest mrt station as we had decided to eat the porridge in chinatown. so in the end, we took 3 different modes of transport. bus 196, cab, mrt to the same place. wah piang. so crazy la. luckily i asked xiao bai.. or else we might b in clementi already.
then we went to eat
breakfast- $5.3o on mac's hotcake
lunch- kway chap $3, sugar cane $1
supper- porridge + frog legs $6.7o + drinks 2.5 (xb give me 1.1)
tissues packs- $2
moisturer- $2.3o
cab- $5.3 (xiao bai give me $2)
donations to sj and angelina- $2.1o (all my loose change)
so in a day, i spend: $27.1
wah seh. xiong leh. like tt can go bankcrupt soon liao. work till siao also cant cover it already..
P/S: i hope the staffs in IMM will b good. or else i can assure i'll b sick on sat =P
♥ Friday, December 08, 2006 ♥
9:19:00 PM
!@^@$P#%! i feel damn bloody stress! bloody work. i'm dead beat. and i was told i'm to transfer to bencoolen!!! knn. dun let it happen leh. everyone pray hard for me. i'll die if i ever transfer there.. so far. although diana told me it's good to go there cuz it ends early.. but so far. i dun mind la.. but my parents side.. difficult to handle ah! hope the manager can do it for me(: tyty^^
meet a super IRRITATING and TROUBLESOME customer. damn demanding. tt's not the point. i did the measurements for him then wan to compare w other shops. tt's like none of my business la. then he wan to kpkb. i was like SOO fustrated can. the instructions were damn clear la. he wans me to measure frm the waist till the part where he folds la. okays, so it was like 38.5. and he was like saying other shops is 39++. so fine, i took the measurements for him again la. damn bloody waste my time. then it shows the same la 38.5. then he not happy already lor. say this not good tt not good abt the jeans la. GRRRRR. then not the worst part, he even tell me off saying i cant measure. like wtf? who dunnoe how to measure sia. his instructions were damn clear la, till the place where he folds. (cuz initally i asked him if he wan till the floor). then i so overly pissed off, then i tell xz to measure it for him la. and now he say wan till the floor. okays, so it was like 39. then he came to me say i measure WRONG. damn it.
so to all.. dun bother the sales assistance la! knn. i feel like scolding all the hokkien vulguarities at him sia. the person spoils my whole day sia! tmr working full shift. kao.. can die leh. will b super tirring can): but for the sake of money... wei-qi, JIAYOU(:
i learnt bits of cashiering. not really nice especially when u had to listen everything in 5mins while the rest took one hour plus coaching lor.. sian. luckily tt point of time no one came for payment.. or i'll die if they use card..
but there was this kind and super good customer la. i keep seeing her one.. then she's like so good. can say something like mdm yap.. just that she's speaking in english instead of chinese. she's really nice(:
then e s&k in-charge came.. she's like so nice la. ROAR!!! i wan to transfer to s&k. she's so nice. but i heard ppl doesn like her wor): nvm, i like her jiu hao. and she's expressing her love for me too! hahahas!! and i think tt trans called the shop today and asked for zhizhong's schedue lor.. HAHA(: *rolling w laughters
i hate doing bank in. i dun like the high risk part): i think the person working in the bank know me liao. cuz frm the first time i'm doing bank in till today, she's the same person serving me. so qiao! and she's quite pretty too. heh.
on my way back home, have to drop by tamp shop then change goods ma.. THEN i thot lucky ah, liling never work so heng lor.. jus find tt person i saw today morning frm i-forgot place liao.. then at the counter i saw this familar body size.. LILIAN. tt's my first thougt. then i told myself cant b la, she dm leh.. of cuz not working la.. then i saw the person's face (cuz covered by the model)!! it was HER. omg. i nearly die can.. then it occur that she recognise me lor!! GRRR. then have to act nice when talking to her lor):
can anyone tell me wad's purpler? i think it's purple.. but the person cant spell it :P cuz it was written as colours: black, white, purpler. then i was like 'huhs?' and it wasnt careless mistake cuz i saw it like 3 times on tt paper..
ps: it wasnt jus vexed over tt customer.
old memories jus came bck suddenly):
♥ Tuesday, December 05, 2006 ♥
3:43:00 PM
just few days ago then i realised why i always feel different when i'm working and when i'm in parkway wif my staffs. now i know why they always have the different degree of looks when they see me. i understood it now. but wad can i do? turn back the time till pri 6 and flunk my exams and b like them or wad is it? since i'm in my current state, u cant blame me for this and b in the position. it's not as if i ever had a 'i'm a high and mighty person' attitude, neither did i scorn at anyone and said 'oh, y u so stupid' etc stuffs. so stop giving me tt look. give me a chance to prove tt i'm not that kind of person cuz i'll never b.
manager give me 2 days of OFF! yeah!! *cheers* but i have to work full (11-10) on 2 days, 2 mornings (11-7) and one half morning (1015-2)
i miss miss tan, mdm yap, 4e3 darlings, wanling, joyce, annabelle, tpss staffs, des, sujun.
it've been so long. months and months ago already. why cant i take tt as a joke, something which i practically forgot long ago since everything has ended? why cant i shut my brain of tt incident? y cant i forget abt it. i'm angry. but not wif the person involve, bt myself. i told myself upteen times to forget, but y cant i do it? why why why? is this under the section on over-reliance on someone? thus i can never forget? i hate it whenever i had free time during work cuz i realised i ended up crying in the storeroom.
the days u spent w/o me were just the same, but it's not the same towards me you see. i hate trying to act okay when i'm not, when i'm bleeding inside. trying to act reading when i'm glancing in ur direction. but, in the end, i realised ur gaze were somewhere else.
goodbye (:
have u ever love and lost somebody
ishing there was a chance to say i'm sorry?
can u see, tt's the way i feel abt u and me
have u ever felt ur heart was breaking
lookin down at the road u shld be taking?
i shld've known the day i let u go.